I like Valentine's Day, I am one of the few people that do. Most people see it as a stupid "Halmark Holiday"(quoting someone now). It hurts that people have become so bitter to towards it that they forget what the day truly is about. I see why they are bitter, but you do not have to go out and spend a fortune on your lover. It is the only day of the year that everyone can set aside and be happy and civil, but the argument that I heard is that you can do this on any other day of the year, but the thing is, this is the day where EVERYONE can be happy and civil, where EVERYONE can attempt to be happy at the same time, where EVERYONE can set aside their anger and sadness for just one day. Then there are those who are all alone and complain that they have no one and call it "Single Awareness Day", this is where the other and the major part of the hatred towards this day comes from, but little do they know that in other countries lie those that speak Spanish the day is called "The day of love and friendship", it does not have to be all about being with your lover, you can spend it with your friends. All of this negative energy really hurts and kills my mood. It is really hard to be around so many bitter people that I got so fed up with everyone that I grabbed a heart shaped piece of chocolate and threw it at a wall then stomped on it and kicked and grabbed again and threw at the same wall that it was originally thrown at. Everyone ruins this day for everyone else.
The worst part about this day is that I had a scout meeting that night so that we could meet new kids, they told me ten kids would show up, only four did, I almost walked right out of the building. This ruined a day that was ruined to begin with. All of my plans were ruined, my mood was ruined, this holiday was ruined. Writing about this makes me angry and I wish I could write more, but then I would start to use names and I do not want to go there.
Day 113
So let me tell you the situation I have been in the past week. My mother went to Mexico last Saturday so I was left with my little brother to watch the house while she is gone. So for the past week we have been having to fend for ourselves, we have plenty of food though, but cooking and making sure the house does not fall apart is the main part of it. I feel like I have learned a lot this week. I realized that living alone is pretty hard. Yes, it does feel nice to know that you can finally do things for yourself and that you make the rules and yes, it does feel good to be alone, but that is the thing, being lonely and me go hand in hand, but it is my worst enemy. I get lonely often and you would think that I am used to it, but the loneliness that I felt was more than you think. Having my brother and my dog helps stave it off, but when my had to help his friend with homework twice this week so it just being my dog and I, makes it really hard.
I having been busy after school the past week with stuff I was too busy to take pictures.
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